More First Steps

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I just returned from a remarkable three days at an outlying hospital in Caluquembe.  It is a rural mission hospital that serves nearly a million people and is located in the interior of SW Angola.  It is operated by nurses and has no full time physician.  A surgeon from our mission hospital in Lubango travels there once/month for three days and sees patients and does surgeries that are reserved for him/her.

I went with Dr Steve Foster and essentially learned.  I saw so many people suffering with the local killer diseases, many of which I’ve only seen 20+ years ago in multiple trips to Haiti.  The disease patterns are so different and more serious than those I saw in the Brazil Amazon.

I also began to learn how to perform urgently needed surgeries possible under local anesthesia (Cesareans, hernias, appendectomies, etc), began to touch, smell and see the local diseases and the treatments available, and saw first hand, once again, that there are remarkable people doing beautiful work in the most remote places.

One of my goals this year will be to soak up all I can from Steve Foster and his breadth of knowledge from 30+ years of working in the interior of Africa.    I will return to Caluquembe with Luke on Monday for two weeks to learn all that I can from the incredible nurses serving with so little in this rural hospital.  It is an ideal place for me to learn because where I desire to go there will be virtually no human health care resources and few other health care resources.  We also will be wanting to train people to practice basic medicine in very rural conditions, similar to the conditions in Caluquembe.  Of course, we will not seek to reproduce such a hospital, but rather reproduce the same quality of health care on a smaller scale.

It is a Christian hospital, originally a Swiss mission hospital originating in the early 1900s.  I gave a message to the staff about how different God’s perspective is from ours.  It was well received.

We flew over some beautiful countryside in our small plane for our 45 minute trip.  I saw hundreds of traditional villages, from 5-30 houses, a mile or two apart, with thatched homes arranged in a circle, and no electricity or running water.  Exactly the folks we wish to serve.  When we arrived at the dirt runway out side of the small town of Caluquembe, the plane had to pass a few feet over the runway to scatter people and animals on the runway to clear it for landing.  We were then swarmed by the local people as we departed from the plane.

Our living conditions were simple, with a barrel of water to use for washing, a mattress over a reed mat for sleeping, and work from early morning to late night.

I experienced my first encounter with a type of swarming, “army” ant that is common in the rural areas here.  When we arrived to our house after dinner on the first night, one of our Angolan colleagues approached the front door and began yelping, laughing, jumping up and down and waving us away.  As we cautiously approached the house, we saw thousands of ants on the path leading to the door and on the exterior front wall of the house.  When we went inside, the ants were pouring into the house through the windows.  We left the house quickly and someone came and poured diesel around the house and several hours later, there were no ants in the house.  Without the diesel “treatment”, we were told that they typically swarm the house and eat anything and everything alive in the house, moving through in a couple hours.  They laughed and said it’s the best treatment for cockroaches.  They told stories of dogs and other animals being eaten while trapped inside the house.  The bite of the ant is painful, like a good pinch.

It was a very full, tiring, great three days and I’m so looking forward to returning, learning, and serving these hurting, beautiful people.

The people were so impressive.  Most of them had awful injuries or diseases for so long and bore them with such kindness and grace.  I was treated with such gratitude and respect.  I want to learn from these folks (and I’ve so much to learn).   I sense a love already developing for them that I haven’ t made any effort to “work up”.  Thank you, Father.

Some of what we saw in Caluquembe, where there is no surrounding health care:

A baby with most of its scalp burned, much of it needing skin grafts (cooking fire burns are common, especially in toddlers).

A young man who lost most of one thigh to the bite of a 6 foot crocodile while he was wading in familiar, knee-deep water.

An illness called Guillain-Barre Syndrome (the medical people reading this will appreciate this) that almost completely paralyzed an otherwise healthy 30 y/o man.

Many large bone fractures (femur, tibia, etc) requiring months of traction in a hospital bed.

Too many cases of various types of sadly well advanced cancer (there is no radiation or chemo therapy available to these people).

There is a large population of albinos in this region and they all (at a young age) have deforming skin cancer, as well as deformations resulting from the surgeries to remove the cancer.

Way too many cases of cerebral malaria.  Young, healthy children and adults lying in comas.

Dr Foster did five vagina-bladder fistula repairs, caused from labor failing to progress, resulting in a still-birth and a hole between the vagina and bladder of the mother.  This otherwise healthy young woman is then the scourge of her community as she has no way to control her urine and her odor and condition cause her to be unbearable to everyone.  She is shunned and rejected.  There are thousands of these women in this part of Africa and these repairs are as beautifully life-changing as the initial event was devastating.

There is a large population of families with neurofibromatosis in the region with a variety of marked cosmetic deformities (Dr Foster removed most of the chest of a woman whose neurofibromas had turned to cancer).

On our last day there, I finally felt somewhat at home when a man arrived at the hospital from a car accident, having been thrown from the flipping car.  They called me and initially he appeared to have only a few scratches, but I did a quick ultrasound (with a portable machine sacrificially donated for our work here by a very good friend) which revealed a lot of blood in his abdomen.  We took him quickly to surgery and Dr Foster repaired the internal bleeding.  A little ED medicine sure felt nicely familiar in this very unfamiliar environment.

I assisted on several Cesareans and did most of the last.  This will be a very helpful skill for me to have where we will be working as the infant and mother mortality is very high in the remote areas, mainly because the 10-15% of births anywhere that need this surgery to save either the baby or the mother (even from the above fistula), isn’t available.  I hope to do many of these surgeries in the next couple weeks, under only local anesthesia, so as to be prepared to do the same in someone’s simple rural home (hut) when needed over the next many years.

I saw so many cases of TB.  TB of the lungs, of the joints, of the abdomen, of the back.  It’s everywhere, just like it has been worldwide for most of history.  It’s a devastating illness and it’s wonderful to be able to offer solid treatment to those afflicted.  Just yesterday, I saw a young man of about 30 with extensive TB of one lung.  He had been on treatment for two months and had been hospitalized with a chest tube for 40 days.  We told him that he likely needed surgery and another chest tube and he and his father (who had traveled with his son a day from the coast to get here) broke down and cried.  All of these beautiful people that we are seeing in the interior of Africa are you and me, with broken hopes, dreams, and such real pain.

In between surgeries, I saw 50 or 60 people in consultations over the three days and this helped me continue to learn the regional illness and the treatments available.  I was also able to observe Steve do some of his 50+ surgeries and attend to people in the hospital and in the clinic.  I learned so much.  I told Steve that I frustratingly felt like a resident again, knowing so little; but also, like a resident, I again feel the wonder and awe of learning more knowledge and procedures in order be in a position to help someone suffering.

Well… I’ve been going on early walks with my Father lately and working through the incredible gratitude I’ve been feeling regarding where I now find myself… and why it took so long to get here.  I alternate between moments of regret/questions and hours of gratitude.

It seems that my life has been leading to this point of purpose.  I’m thrilled to be here.  I’m understanding that from the time he called me to this type of work almost thirty years ago, He has been preparing me for the task (obviously, I needed a lot of work).  The beauty of His divine working in our lives is that He is always doing many things at once.  All along the journey, He leads, uses, builds, shapes, and prepares at the same time.  I’m recognizing that trusting our Father is not only the key to experiencing peace as we consider our present and future circumstances, trusting Him is also the source of peace when analyzing our past.

Believing that He rules over every moment of the journey, and every choice (ours and others), can be a real source of joy.  I can trust in His rule, timing and preparation for my life or I can acknowledge that I am where I am by chance.  Fruit accompanies each, and I am familiar with both the peace of trusting His ever-involvement in yesterday, today, and tomorrow, and the anxiety/regret/loneliness of forgetting the same.

There remain many questions… about calling and timing… about world suffering… about how He prepares the both the hammer AND the house… about what I can and cannot understand.  But…

As the above fades in and out, words simply cannot express how grateful I am to my Father for allowing me to participate in His work in Angola by loving these dear, beautiful people, many of whom are so suffering.  I’m also grateful to you for supporting us so that we can, with you, participate with our Father in His work.  It isn’t necessarily a pleasurable task, but it is so very good.  There is perhaps no greater privilege in this life than being a tool in the sure hands of the Carpenter, especially where tools are few.  The carpenter’s work is all His, and I’m so thankful today to be (with you) His hands/feet/mouth, as He carries out His present work here (touching physically and spiritually those that He loves in Angola).

First Steps

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I began my orientation this past week to the health care needs of post-war, impoverished Angola.  My first week of work in the hospital has been bittersweet.  It has been nice to be able to see and treat so many very sick people who arrived, in many cases, after days to weeks of walking.  It has also been difficult to see human beings, created lovingly by our Father, in such painful, debilitated conditions.  A few descriptions follow:

 

A 2 month old girl, who will be blind for the rest of her life because her cornea was infected with gonorrhea (so common here) during birth .  It is standard in developed countries to treat all newborns with an ointment to prevent this.

 

A 48 year old man who will lose one eye and half his face because of six years of growth of basal cell skin cancer.  He came in with the left eye and the area surrounding looking just like hamburger.  He just kept hoping it would improve.  Going to a hospital was not culturally automatic for him.

 

A forty year old women who had lost 16 pregnancies in the second trimester, arrived at six months, in labor.  A cerclage was placed and meds were given to arrest labor and 24 hr later, she was resting comfortably.  The next day, her labor progressed and she delivered and the baby did not survive.

 

A twelve year old with malaria and liver failure because he took a popular “traditional” medicine (all natural) that destroyed his liver.  The malaria is treatable, the liver failure is not.

 

A forty year old man who lost sight in one eye because of untreated, marked high blood pressure.

 

Several beautiful men and women who had been battling the symptoms of TB for months.  This disease is everywhere here and, praise God, quite treatable.

 

A thirty year old women died because of advanced bladder cancer, caused by a very common parasite picked up by wading in contaminated water.

 

Multiple cases of severe malaria (several resistant to initial treatment), usually involving the brain (cerebral malaria), caused by the most dangerous type (Falciparum), which is about the only type here.  Virtually no one living here has not had the pleasure…

 

Many, various cases (fractures, tumors, infections, etc) neglected or improperly treated at their local hospitals, clinics, or traditional healers leaving debilitating, permanent functional disability.

 

I spent a day with Steve Collins, a 73 year old Family Practice Physician (with the energy of a young man), who learned how to remove cataracts at age 58 and has given thousands their sight back.

 

I am spending my days seeing patients and doing rounds with Dr Steve Foster and two beautiful, helpful, young physicians, who are learning with me from Dr Foster how to treat the many medical challenges that arrive daily, carried by many who have been suffering for a long time from that which, even after 20+ years as a physician, I cannot imagine.  Significant suffering is normal here and is typically borne with incredible grace.  I have been challenged many times already by the manner in which, what we would define as tragic, is accepted with remarkable grace and humility.

 

I pray for each person, reminding them that there is but one Healer, and that physicians and medications are tools, like a hammer, in the hands of the Carpenter.  I ask God to touch them physically, to resolve their condition, to encourage them, to convince them of His affection for them, and to reveal Himself to them   So far, this speaking to my Father on their behalf has been received well.

 

We find someone sleeping on our front steps most mornings.

 

I’ve had several conversations with the veteran missionaries about strategy to reach the unreached.  It looks like the several people groups in the SW corner of this country might be our target.  There may be as many as 750,000 people in this region with no health care at all and little or no Kingdom presence (depending on the people group).  How we will do this and exactly where we will go, remains unknown, but there is a lot of enthusiasm among the missionaries (pilots with Mission Aviation Fellowship, those in health care, and the local Angolan believers) here to reach these people groups.  Please pray for us over the next few months, that our Father would guide our conversations and our time with Him, and that each of our decisions would line up well with His purposes for us.  It is our heart to hear and obey, rather than do our own thing, no matter how good it might seem strategically.  I’m grateful that the other missionaries share this perspective on hearing our Father rather than doing “something great” for the Kingdom.  We recognize that zeal and passion for God can be misdirected.  

 

I spent a morning at an outlying clinic and saw about 30 kids, from 2 weeks to 12 years.  About half tested positive for malaria (and it’s the dry season).

 

Our travel, setup, ministry and living funds have been adequate, and we are so grateful for each of you who is partnering with us.  We couldn’t be here at all without the hard work that you contribute through your donations to SIM.  We are thrilled to be part of a wonderful team reaching into Angola to touch many with health services and to demonstrate and speak of God’s confounding love for each and every person here.

 

I am so glad to be here.  The work will be challenging and I have much to learn, but I dearly wish to be spent in a place like this.  These dear people are cherished by our Father, who invites us (me here and you there) to be the instruments He uses to demonstrate His care for them.  For we know that He desires each and every one to know Him as He is, and to live in unity with Him, as Adam and Eve did in the garden, and as Jesus did and does.  We desire to daily walk in this unity and be witnesses that it is both possible and beautiful to love as He loved.

 

Please pray for us today, however His Spirit might lead you.

 

Thank you!

The One Thing…

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I’ve been in Namibia for a week, picking up an ordered truck and some hospital supplies and enjoying my time in a predominantly first world city (Windhoek) and wishing I was with my family in a very third world city (Lubango).  Though I’ve had some delightful interactions with beautiful people here, coming here (a two day drive) makes me really appreciate the poor, harsh conditions of Angola, confirming again that this is exactly where I want to be spent.  

 

The missionary family in Angola is obviously special and each new introduction has been a pleasure.  We are pretty well settled in and have either generator or city power and running water most of the time.  Our vehicles have arrived.  We’re getting to know the city a little (still are pretty clueless, but receiving much help from our new friends).  We’ve seen many baboons around the outside of the city (always cool for us to see).  

 

Lubango is so dirty, so busy, so unorganized, and so expensive.  There is little sense of customer service or outward friendliness or warmth.  There is a general sense of insecurity, the kind that causes a person to always appear sure of themselves, without need, “right”, “together”.  Though this insecurity is part of human nature everywhere, it is profoundly apparent here and quite obvious in our interactions.  This prompts some thoughts this morning.  Insecurity…

 

…one of the primary symptoms of a lonely human nature, so obvious in adolescents in their need to feel “right” and sure (when they simply can’t be), in their wild rides through depression and pursuit of pleasure, in their exhausting pursuit of achievement to “prove” themselves, and in their masks of having life totally under control.  Adults are no different, and, sadly, the church looks little different than the world.

 

Perhaps this is because becoming a “christian” doesn’t solve the security issue.  Throughout history, God’s people have both walked with Him and walked apart from Him.  We, as Jesus followers, have a daily choice.  We can walk closely with our Father OR we can live independently of Him, resist the light, and experience all the blindness, confusion and insecurity that darkness brings.  If the fruit (result, product) of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, goodness, self-control, etc) isn’t evident in our lives, we are not living in closeness and surrender to the only One who can manifest this fruit.  

 

Modern day evangelical christianity (and missions) makes a grave error when communicating that to “become a christian” is to find what we long for.  Theirs is a philosophy not unlike the Roman Catholic baptism tradition which they so adamantly criticise.  Becoming a christian (or being baptized) simply does NOT make one whole.  Life is rather found in walking in communion, closeness, and oneness with God.  Our modern evangelism leads to only the first breath of life, akin to helping the delivery of a baby only to abandon him/her at birth.  In contrast, Jesus said to make disciples, implying that the discipler and the disciples walk together through life.   Why do we reject the mentoring, discipling, and community model that Jesus gave to us?  Because of the required relational transparency and commitment required, in contrast to the “private” lives we lead in the West?

 

Insecurity is not a sin, but a symptom.  It is a symptom of walking independently of the One who made us, the only One we can trust to direct us with care and purpose.  It can be a symptom of one in God’s family as much as one outside of His family.  Insecurity is sadly hugely apparent within the church.  It is why we seek the approval of men, why we put God in a theological box, why we cannot walk in love with a brother who is at a different place of understanding, why we wear masks that communicate that everything is fine, why we avoid conflict, why we don’t speak the truth in love (at risk of losing relationship), why we don’t love and receive love.  

 

Insecurity is a manifestation of fear and fear is everywhere in the church because we really don’t believe that we are cherished, protected, and valued by our Father.  Love is the remedy for fear and insecurity, especially love of the One who care-fully and purposefully made each of us for one primary purpose, to walk with Him (aka Adam and Eve).  Fear cannot abide with love and we have a church that talks about God’s love, but doesn’t believe it, as is evidenced by the fear and insecurity within.  There is wide gulf between knowing about God’s love and believing it.  

 

The love of God (for everyone AND for me) is the Good News, but our focus and our message has become so many other things, causing this heart-changing truth of the Kingdom to be lost.  Distraction is perhaps the enemy’s greatest tool today, filling our minds and our lives in such a way that God’s love for us isn’t necessarily rejected, but rather forgotten.  How consciously aware are you today of His joy in you, His profound affection for you, His devotion to you, His concerned awareness of your every circumstance and interaction?

 

Our message of the Kingdom in Angola is Christ crucified.  The love of a gracious Father is the Gospel, demonstrated so clearly in Jesus’ life, words and death.  Greater love has no one than this…  Throughout history, in Jesus, at the cross, in virtually every passage of His word, and in all of creation, our Father screams this central theme.  If only we will hear and bear witness to the Gospel truth, “I am loved”.

 

Have you met one that reeks of security in his/her Father’s love and care?  One who trusts his/her Father’s purposes in their joy AND in their pain?  One in whom it can be said that the joy of the Lord is their strength because they are one with their Father?

 

We don’t need seminaries and theology to know the Kingdom of God.  In fact, Jesus emphasized the opposite.  We don’t find God or grow in Him by study and knowledge.  We find His kingdom when we, as a child, accept and believe what He has said is true.  Period.  It is so simple (a child can understand), but it is not easy (so many distractions).  

 

We trust Him, take Him at His word and, like a child secure in the care of his/her parents, we depend entirely on our care-giver while giving little thought to our own care.  We know tranquility rather than fret, we rest rather than burnout doing good things, we ask questions and listen rather than feel like we must know all the answers, we follow rather than seek our own way.

 

Nothing brings out insecurity in me and identifies who has my trust more than whole-scale change.  Nothing is familiar in my life right now as we transition and I can find security nowhere until I lift my eyes to my Father and find inner rest.  Then, soon again, I find myself walking independently of Him and I feel the confusion, the burden, the fear of failure, the anxiety… the insecurity.

 

Those who call themselves “born again”, or “saved” are many.  Those who call themselves “christian” are many.  Church-goers are many.  Those walking closely with Jesus are few and the aroma about them is the same as that of their Father, because they become like Him.  They love.  They love their brother.  They love those who disagree with them.  They love those who wound them.  They love the weak, the confused, the one full of tattoos and dreadlocks, full of questions and without direction.  They are concerned about the lostness and pain evident in cultures unfamiliar because that is the heart of their Father.  They go to the hurting, giving themselves to be spent because Jesus did the same.  They live with a light burden and an easy yoke because the One they trust has broad shoulders and has the strength to bear every burden.  They listen for instruction, not eating from the tree of their own wisdom/perspective, but rather looking to the only One who knows.

 

Will you join me in walking with Jesus today (no matter where you were with God yesterday)?  He’s knocking.  Let’s each go for a walk with Him, or sit quietly with Him, and unburden our hearts.  Let’s share with Him our fears and struggles and humanity, knowing that NOTHING changes His profound love for us.  Let’s take Him at His word again and trust in the affection and joy that He has in us.  Let’s remember again that knowing Him is eternal life.  Let’s know Him and be known by Him.  Let’s not do our own work but listen for our Shepherd’s instruction.  Let’s live as though the One we serve is alive, and follow His living Spirit, rather than live by principle and knowledge.  Let’s walk in the Light.  Let’s communicate to someone today how they are cherished by a Father they may or may not yet know.

 

 

I could sing of Your love forever,

I could sing of Your love forever,

I could sing of Your love forever,

I could sing of Your love forever. 

 

 

Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost…
Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

 

The Lord is my shepherd (because He loves me); I have all that I need (because He loves me). He lets me rest in green meadows (because He loves me); he leads me beside peaceful streams (because He loves me). He renews my strength (because He loves me). He guides me along right paths (because He loves me), bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me (because you love me). Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me (because you love me). You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies (because you love me). You honor me by anointing my head with oil (because you love me). My cup overflows with blessings (because you love me). Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life (because you love me), and I will live in the house of the Lord forever (because…)


First Experiences

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I can’t believe that we’ve been in Lubango almost two weeks.  We’ve been in our apartment for a week.  It has been a sprint in working through the long list of things needing done for us to settle in.  Today, for example, I need to pick up our truck from the dealer, meet with an auto insurance guy, get a license plate, finish repairing our water pump, and replace six outlets.  Yesterday, I fixed a toilet leak (we woke to a bathroom full of water), replaced a float in our water box, worked on our water pump (still not fixed), fixed a broken shower and arranged for internet to our home.  All of these are simple jobs in a familiar location but in a very disorganized, city in the developing world they take so much time.  In fixing the toilet, for example, I went to 5 different small hardware stores and none had the part so I improvised with non-ideal parts and a lot of silicone (which was also difficult to find) and got the job done (how long will it hold?).

The kids have worked hard at the apartment painting and cleaning and helping with all of our tasks which have included repairing screens, moving furniture, shopping.  We’ve spent many hours in the unfamiliar environment shopping for a fridge, stove, washer and generator.  We’ve been given much furniture from former missionaries which has been a huge help.

I’ve been at the hospital for less than an hour since our arrival and have been encouraged to get settled before beginning work, which I greatly appreciate.  I sure am looking forward to beginning.

A few of our first experiences follow:

While out shopping as a family, we went to leave our spot and four young men wouldn’t let us leave.  As I was deciding how I should handle this, one peed all over the back of the car.  Rather than get upset, this 52 year old man was in awe of the force and distance of his stream!  Well, they sure got a kick out of themselves, roaring and laughing as we drove away.  Urine really is sterile.

There are oneway streets everywhere and every corner either has no signs or unfamiliar signs.  On our third day driving, stopping at every corner and asking the four drivers scrunched in our car whether they thought it was ok to go this way or that, we were pulled over by a policeman on a motorcycle.  He said that I went the wrong way on a certain street several blocks past (we had no idea which one) and that there was no excuse (I tried the rookie whine) because the streets are all so well marked!  He wrote me a ticket for $110US and told me that it would be most convenient if I just paid him.  I had absolutely no idea how to respond so I swallowed all of my fleshly responses and paid the guy.  The local missionaries told me later that this was a perfect example of the crooked system and he was simply spotting the new white family and lining his pockets.  I’ve been stopped three times in less than two weeks.  I either stand out as fresh meat or am an awful driver.

While at a local “walmart”, a small store that has everything, we witnessed a young man angrily pulled toward the back of the store by two guards and beaten severely with a nightstick for several minutes.  He had been caught trying to shoplift and suffered severely for his indiscretion.  Every store has several uniformed guards who take their jobs seriously.

We have a guard/gardener who is about 50-60 years old and is as pleasant as can be.  He does tasks such as replace our cooking fuel and generator diesel, take our trash away, care for the yard, protect the premises, etc and we will pay him about $20US/week for this.  I think he will actually be a joy to have around and maybe help a bit with security.  He’s like having a Golden Retriever for security!

We have several people/day stop by asking us for food.  We typically give them some rice, beans and eggs.  Some seem genuinely hungry and some are drunk and we will need some time to develop some cultural perspective.

I’ve never encountered such dust, and the eight month dry season is just beginning.  The humidity has averaged about 40%.  We are at about 6000 ft elevation and the nights have been in the 50′s and the days in the 70′s.

There is a woman who pounds on our door every day at about 6:00a, yelling who-knows-what for about 30 seconds and walks away.  As I write, the woman just knocked again.  I’m watching her walk away, talking and yelling.

I joined two other docs for a radio program on hypertension.  Who’d a thought?  A medical radio program in the heart of Sub-Sahara Africa!

We got DSL internet yesterday for $122/month and it worked great for about 2 hour and hasn’t worked since.

I already love the smell of diesel in our home.  It means we have electricity!

I walk for an hour each morning, through beautiful wildflowers growing everywhere among the trash and human waste.  It is such a beautiful illustration of God’s kingdom beauty in the midst of a confusing, painful world.  I walk on the hills of the city, among the simplest of short, mud houses, along narrow dirt roads full of large, granite rocks (granite is everywhere), impassable for most vehicles, packed with people walking, standing and talking, kids playing…  Most women are carrying water or laundry on their heads.  The paltry streams are full of women washing clothes.  Men are peeing out in the open without inhibition.  There are so many flies, likely because of all the trash and waste.  Some of the shacks have satellite dishes, most do not have wiring or plumbing.   There are no outhouses.  Often I pass someone and they say to someone else, “Look at the white man!”

About every half hour during the night the thousands of dogs around the city go crazy for about 15 minutes.  It is so loud and often wakes me.  I’m sure I will eventually block it out but it is impressive.

We’ve been trying to call home for a week and haven’t yet been successful.  We’re hoping Skype will eventually work.

Angolans are not coffee drinkers.  This is a difficult transition after Brazil, where it is always served and savored, even in the remotest jungle villages.

Nobody’s been ill, and everyone seems to be doing well.  I leave on Sunday for a two week trip to Namibia, through the interior, to pick up my truck and run some errands for the hospital.  I will be traveling with Norm, a fellow missionary with MAF, who has been such a pleasure to get to know and a huge help to us in getting settled.  The missionaries here have been a huge help to us in our adjustment and in orienting us to the work and culture.

Thank you for praying and supporting us in this work.  We are thrilled to be here and more certain than ever that this is exactly where our Father would like to spend us for the sake of those He dearly loves in the interior of Angola.

First Impressions

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It is really nice to be here and begin our adjustment and transition.  It is quite a bit different than, and quite similar to, what we were accustomed to in Brazil.  The kids have said several times that our surroundings, in general, feel quite familiar.

We’re adjusting to the altitude (about 6,000 ft) and feeling a bit nauseous and “off” but not ill.  We’re sleeping a bit better each night (jet lag).

The portuguese is easier to understand but it will take some adjustment in speaking.  Everyone here knows three or four languages so we are language wimps.  English is spoken nowhere.

The city electricity is on for only a few hours a day, sometimes.  We will live on generator power, mainly in the evening.  We’ll have no power through the night so we will learn to get around in the dark and use the generator minimally during the day.   The city water is untreated so we will purchase good filters for drinking water and they are available here, though expensive.  We went shopping to check prices and, as expected, everything is quite expensive.  For example, our generator, fridge, stove and washer will likely cost close to $10,000.  We have been hugely blessed in that the SIM mission has offered to us furniture, a table and chairs, several beds, and a freezer left here from previous missionaries.  This will so help.  We have been so blessed by our Father financially though so many of you, yet we will have to work hard to stretch every dollar.

A new grocery store opened six months ago and is just like a smaller version of the stores in the States (first one like it here) and will be ten minutes from our apartment.  Some things are cheap and some very expensive, so we will learn what to buy at the outdoor markets and what to buy there.

The city is crowded, unorganized, and has few traffic laws with many roads like I only experienced in the Amazon interior (huge ruts, rocks and holes).  While driving in the city, one must be both cautious and aggressive.  I’ll first learn about part of the interior when I drive with a friend 800 miles to pick up our ordered truck in Namibia.  Crime is high, mostly thievery, so a lot of good sense is needed in moving around town.  About every time we turn around, we are confronted by someone begging, often children.  We will gain some perspective over time.

We have been so warmly welcomed and this has been good for our souls.  We have had meals made for us, chocolates delivered for Easter, rides around town, and so many of the missionaries willing to spend time orienting us.  This thorough orientation will mean so much in coming days.  We’ve so much to learn.  We feel like we have joined a family.

Another family arrived a couple months ago with kids the exact ages and gender of our kids.  They spent the day together yesterday and had a great time.  What a blessing!  We are not worthy of such treatment (arriving at about the same time as the Fox’s) but our Father continues to show His affection for us in so many ways.  We had a restful Easter Sunday, beginning with a large, city church service with the most remarkable choir I’ve ever heard.  Worship appeared genuine and I look forward to getting to know some of the folks in the church and partnering with them in reaching out to those living remotely who don’t know our Father’s affection for them.

We are staying in the home of Steve and Peggy Foster, the leaders of the medical work here, who are currently visiting their daughter in Botswana.  The house in situated in a missionary community and allows an easier first week for us.   We so look forward to working with Steve and Peggy.

We hope to move into our apartment at the end of the week.  This 2nd floor apartment will be more than adequate for us and is located in the middle of town, about 10-15 minutes from the hospital.  It has a living area, a nice sized kitchen, three bedrooms and two baths.  It also has a front balcony and a room that will double as a school room and office.

We will begin today looking for a used second car and appliances while spending the afternoon cleaning the apartment and fixing screens, as malaria is everywhere, though less during the dry season, which we are entering.  I will focus on getting us situated and perhaps begin working at the hospital next week.

Our challenges begin!  We look forward to being spent for the rural Angolan people, that more might see Him as He is, and know His heart for them.  We begin confident in our Father’s care for us and that we work and live with your support and with so many cheering us on and praying for us.  Thank you so much for your encouraging emails!

Welcome!

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We arrived yesterday in Lubango after a restful two days in Windhoek, Namibia.  Brent Mudde, the pilot who came from Lubango to pick us up graciously answered all of our questions and shared about life in Angola.  We went on a Safari for an afternoon which was incredible, and the highlight was seeing 5 huge white Rhinos come near our truck.  We saw giraffes and pumbas and many other animals whose names I don’t know.

We flew four hours north to Lubango in a Cessna Caravan and flew in and around several beautiful mountain ranges and landed in Lubango to be greeted warmly by several gracious, welcoming and very helpful missionaries.  We had no problems with customs.

We spent the day driving around the city and meeting our new missionary family.   They are lovely people and were so helpful in making our first day here special, providing housing, meals, and answering our many questions.  We sure felt as though they were glad that we were here.  The mission director, Sheila, did so much to make our welcome warm and special.

We drove around the large , crowded city of Lubango (led by Norm and Audrey, who have so helped prepare over the last few months), bought cell phones, and fell into our beds at the end of a very full day.

Lubango is an impressive city in its simple, poor housing, its crowded conditions, and roads within the city that are worse than the worst roads I saw in the Amazon, mainly because they are full of huge rocks.  I’ll write more in coming days and try to capture this in some photos.

Today, we have an Easter service at a large church, a lunch with the rest of our missionary team and an english-speaking fellowship in the evening.

I will begin getting oriented at the hospital on Monday, but our first priority will be getting settled into our apartment and unpacking.

Thank you for your help, your support, and your requests to our Father on our behalf.  We arrive and dive into all of the unfamiliar knowing that we are so loved.

tim and betsy

Not!

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We went to the airport on Monday, only to find that our flight was cancelled and due to a clerical error, we could not catch an arranged alternative flight.  So strange that it is easy to accept this as purposeful.  The next available departure is Monday night.  We are quite content and resting after the two week mad dash to get out on Monday.  We will now arrive in Lubango on Saturday afternoon, April 7th, if that suits our Father.

 

We continue to so enjoy the early Spring and see it as a very special gift to be here at this time and to spend one more week with my family in Toledo.  We’ll post again on our arrival and when we again have internet.

Here we go…

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So glad to be going.

So sad to be leaving.

So encouraged by so many.

So apprehensive about the unknown.

So exhausted from the preparation.

So excited about the work ahead.

Separated again from friends and family. United with new friends and family.

Trusting, trusting in One so trustworthy.

Out of Detroit today, arriving in Windhoek, Namibia on Wed evening, staying there a couple days and arriving in Lubango on April 1st.

If our Father so desires.

Travel Update

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We have our visas in hand and will depart from Detroit on March 26th, arriving in Lubango, Angola on April 1st.

 

It has been a whirlwind of recent activity as we seek to prepare to relocate this family of six to rural Angola.  We are shopping, packing, homeschooling, and trying to arrange to carry with us at least a year’s worth of medications without offending physicians, pharmacists and insurance companies.  It’s amazing to think that when we left Brazil last summer, medical professionals were not much a part of our lives, except as friends and colleagues.  I much prefer being on the other side of the stethoscope!

 

We will live where many things common here will be either not available or quite expensive, so we must fit our “necessities” into our twelve suit cases or boxes.

 

We are quite ready to begin the task that our Father has given us.  We hope to help the Angolan people living remotely by serving them medically and introducing them to our Father.  We will seek to be witnesses to our living Friend and Lord as we wade into currently unknown relationships, challenges, costs, rewards, frustrations, pleasures, losses and riches.  He must increase…

 

We are so very blessed by the incredible team that is “going with us” to Africa.  What a thrill it is to be a part of our Father’s family.  So many people are helping  to reach out to these unreached people in SW Angola, and we so need help.  We all seek to make ourselves available to our Potter to mold and to use in Angola, as He will.

 

During these challenging and trying recent months, we have been loved, encouraged, trusted, supported and embraced and we will arrive in our new culture so very grateful for our faithful family at home.

 

Please keep in touch.  We hope to return for a few months in two or three years and will continue to email and blog as we begin our new journey.  We’ll post this note and some new proverbs today and write again when we arrive.

 

We’re so grateful that you are walking with us!

 

tim and betsy

 


A Cup of Tea

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An excerpt from Crosswalk.com

 

“For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.”

Sam Kamaleson, the vice president of a worldwide mission organization, told a tremendous story of a seventy-year-old lady who came to faith in Christ.

Like many newly-converted believers, her desire was to serve God in any way possible, but she had one troubling question for which she had no answer:  how could she best be used in God’s service?  She eventually approached her pastor with the dilemma and said, “I believe God has called me into some sort of ministry; what should I do?” Since he had no idea what might suit her, he replied, “Maybe you should go home and pray about it.” Now, this is Pastoring 101—if you don’t know the answer, suggest prayer!

After returning home, she followed her pastor’s advice, and sensed that God wanted her to do something to reach students who attended a nearby university.  Thinking of how to connect with them, she hurried to the drugstore, bought a pack of 3×5 cards, and wrote on each one: “Are you homesick? Come to my home for tea at 4:00.”  Then she added her address.

She took her stack of cards and went around the University of Melbourne campus, putting them in places where students were sure to see them: bulletin boards, dining hall, restroom mirrors, car windshields—you name it. She went back home and began preparing tea. When four o’clock came, no one knocked at the door. Day after day, no one showed up. Instead of becoming discouraged, she continued to pray and prepare tea . . . just in case.

At last, on the fifteenth day, an Indonesian student was at her door, homesick and as eager to talk as she was to listen. Excitedly she served tea and gave him a listening ear as he intently told his story.

When he returned to campus, he told all his friends, “Hey, you won’t believe it! I met a lady that’s just like my grandmother.” The young man’s visit was the beginning of other students going to her home at four o’clock for tea. Soon her house was filled with college kids eager to talk. What started as a simple God-given desire to minister to lost souls led to ten years of one-on-one ministry for a woman who sought God’s direction in her service for Him.

When she died there were no less than seventy pallbearers, all of whom were Indonesian, Malaysian, Indian, and other  international students who had come to her home for tea and conversation—and had found Jesus Christ.

Imagine that!

God has called you for a purpose, and you have been uniquely gifted for it. No matter what your limitations may be, God can use you to touch the lives of people who need Christ.

So, if it’s putting on the kettle and setting out an extra cup—there are still people out there who are in desperate need of the gospel . . . and a cup of tea.

 

**This is missionary work at its best:  loving and serving, and in the context of loving and serving, sharing about your Father with those interested.  We’re all missionaries.

Practical Love

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(an excerpt from Open Doors)

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.
(1 John 3:18)

In his book, The Upside Down Church, Pastor Greg Laurie says, “The first Christians didn’t out-argue pagans—they outlived them…Christianity made no attempts to conquer paganism and dead Judaism by reacting blow by blow. Instead, the Christians of the first century out-thought, out-prayed and outlived the unbelievers.

“Their weapons were positive not negative. As far as we know, they did not hold protests or conduct boycotts. They did not put on campaigns to try to unseat the emperor. Instead, they prayed and preached and proclaimed the message of Christ, put to death on the cross, risen from the dead, and ready to change lives. And they backed up their message with actions – giving, loving.”

A co-worker shares a significant event he witnessed among Christian children in Egypt:

A crowd of smiling faces awaited us as we entered the small stuffy room. The ages of the children ranged from eight to eleven years and they were seemingly oblivious and unaware of the circumstances surrounding their village—poverty, problems and persecution. To be a Christian, let alone a Christian child, was not an easy life.

It was Saturday evening and the excitement that filled the air overwhelmed any feeling of self-pity and despair that might have existed. Between thirty and forty young boys, each equipped with a large maize bag, excitedly awaited orders.

As we entered the room the youth leader saw the frowns on our faces and answered our questions even before we could ask. “Yes, it’s Saturday evening,” he started explaining, “and tonight the children will once again ‘invade’ our little village. They will go to every house in every street. They will ask the inhabitants whether they have enough bread to eat or not. If there is more than enough bread in the house they will ask the families to place any extra bread in the bag for those who do not have enough bread.

“The children will continue until all the bags are filled to the top. Then the fun part of the evening starts. They will then go back to all the homes where there was not enough bread to eat and distribute so that every family in our village will have enough bread to eat for the next week.

“They do not have the means to provide it themselves, but regardless of their own needs, they have become instruments of love to eradicate all hunger in our village.”

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What a perfect illustration of the Kingdom!  We are given in order to give.  We get to participate.  What an honor.  What have we been given that we can give?  We are conduits, stewards and instruments, carriers of the maize bags.  We receive in order to give, we are branches to bear fruit, and we are rivers through which His waters (Gal 5:22) flow.  Our banks widen only to allow more of His water to flow through us (to others), we branches grow only to bear more fruit (in others), and we receive more only to give it away (to others).  Love is a verb, and it is others who benefit, in practical ways, in Angola and elsewhere.


Aisle Seat, Grass, Trees…

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A great story from Crosswalk.com.

“A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”

Rebecca Pippert, in her fascinating book  entitled Out of the Salt Shaker and into the World, told the story of her arrival in Portland, Oregon, where she met Bill, one of the students on the campus  where she served. He was a brilliant young man with messy hair and, as she recalls, he was perpetually shoeless. From outward appearances he was a little strange, but inwardly he was inquisitive and incredibly bright.

One day Bill decided to attend a middle-class church that was across the street from the campus. He walked into this church of well-dressed people in his tattered jeans, tee shirt, and, of course, barefooted. In truth, this was the first time he’d ever been inside a church sanctuary.

People looked a bit uncomfortable, but no one said anything as Bill walked down the aisle looking for a seat. The church was quite crowded that Sunday, and as he came to the front pew he realized there were no seats left. So without any hesitation, he sat down on the carpet in the middle of the aisle, the same way he sat when his Christian friends invited him as they met for Bible study. He casually crossed his legs and waited for the service to begin.

The tension was palpable as people murmured, craning their necks to see the stranger in the aisle. Then one of the elderly deacons—a man who was well-respected in the church—began walking down the aisle toward the student. Rebecca’s friends who witnessed this scene told her that they whispered to each other, “Well, you can’t exactly blame him for scolding the guy . . . he is a disruption to the service!”

As the well-groomed deacon neared Bill, the church was deathly quiet. All eyes were glued front and center to see what would happen next. With some difficulty, the old man lowered himself to the floor and sat down next to Bill. He crossed his legs and shared his hymnal with the college-aged boy. The crowd was stunned.

That Sunday the deacon not only worshiped there on the floor, but he reminded the congregation how to worship.

In Africa, in Brazil, and in the US, our words will not be planted deeply until the one we are speaking to knows that we are FOR them, that we value them, that we love them.  Jesus made this point of emphasis so many times and demonstrated the same.  This is such a good reminder to me.  How do we make disciples?  Speaking the truth without love can certainly grow much grass.  Speaking the truth in relationship and with honor, respect and sensitivity to the other’s perspective and journey (love), grows trees.  Let’s love and embrace… like the deacon.

January Update

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We so appreciate your interest in our upcoming work in Angola and we want to update you on our progress and plans.   We have been so blessed by the relational, prayer and financial support shown by so many.  Many who haven’t heard of Jesus’ love, and many who have no health care, will benefit from their efforts.

 

We now have pledges for 100% of the $140,000 start-up costs.

 

We also have pledges for $8,463 (82%) of our monthly living and work expenses ($10,372), we have 74 contributors, and we’re currently receiving 47% of the money pledged.

 

 

***  If you have pledged to financially support us and you’ve begun to send your donations to SIM, we are honored by your trust and you can be assured that your money will be spent on only those expenses necessary for carrying out the work of taking Health Care and the Kingdom to people who now have neither.

 

***  If you have previously pledged to support us monthly, and have not yet begun to donate, please consider beginning to send in your contribution to SIM (info below).  We look forward to how God might use us together to impact the people of Angola with His love

 

***  If you have not pledged to support our health care and Kingdom work with the rural Angolans, would you prayerfully consider joining us in this effort?  No amount is too small or too large as we have financial partners contributing between $10/month and $1000/month.  Every dollar is helpful.  Please discuss with our Father if He would have you give of your hard-earned dollars to His work.  Especially monthly commitments are helpful.  Please notify us by email of your decision, if you would, so that we can track our pledges (we need 100% prior to departure).  Many will benefit from our work and you can play a significant role by being part of the team that sends us!

 

 

Please also let us know if you would like to participate on our prayer team.  Those indicating a desire to pray for us will receive periodic prayer requests from us and will also have a great impact on our work.

 

Tim has been cleared physically by his Cardiologist and his knee Surgeon.

 

We are now looking to depart for Angola near the end of February.  We only wait for our visas and hope to have them in hand in the next couple weeks.

 

We are so grateful for the privilege of being His hands and voice in the fray.  Thank you for joining us on the battlefield of loving the neglected, the hungry, the hurting and the many who don’t yet know Him.

 

tim and betsy

 

 

Giving:

 

Online: http://sim.org/giveusa

 

Check: SIM USA memo: Kubacki, #036374

PO Box 7900

Charlotte, NC 28241

Heart, affliction, love, truth, knowledge…

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This week I was retested for blockage in my coronary arteries and the vessels that were angioplastied and stented in August and November appear to be still open.  I was quite apprehensive before the tests and quite grateful after.

 

What a ride!  We came back to the States to prepare for Angola and undergo a planned knee replacement.  Then the chest pain with exercise, the heart procedure in August to ballon open a blocked vessel, and the awareness that I had extensive disease in about all of my vessels to the tune of 10% – 20% blockage.  I had the knee replaced in October and recovered sufficiently that by November I walked up stairs briskly and the chest pain returned.  I was disappointed because I thought the recently opened artery had again become occluded.  I was to find out that this had indeed occurred, but also that the main coronary artery had gone from 10% blockage to > 80% blockage in just 3 months and others had increased significantly, as well.  This artery was stented and the original was again ballooned open.  All this with no cardiac risk factors!

 

My world view has again been significantly challenged.  My sense that I have control over my health has been identified as illusionary.  The degree of control that I have in my life is far less than I thought.  Simple lesson, learned many times.  I’ve known that God is in control of my life for years, but now I am believing it more securely.  Isn’t it true that we know much intellectually, yet don’t really “know” until faced with an experience that gives us certainty of what we already “knew”.  I remember a friend hitting a parked car while driving at a slow rate of speed without his seatbelt.  After experiencing the force involved in that minor impact, he “learned” the value of a seatbelt, though he “knew” this prior, and he has never driven without restraint since.

 

In the past few months, I have “learned” about my mortality in the same way.  The brevity of life is more real to me.  I can no longer count on a long future, though I may live for years.  It is quite easy now to consider the world without me.  What will my impact be?  I have a new gratitude for each day, each moment because I now “know” that the next one isn’t guaranteed.  My life’s goals have been challenged.  Not only what I do but how I do it.  Living like I might die soon is no longer a cute saying; it is reality (none of us know the day) and it is creating a different outlook.  For example, I’m motivated to “do” rather than just to “hear”.  I don’t want to procrastinate the words that need said or the task that will bless someone.  My true (minimal) value in this world is more clear.  My opinion is meaning less and less.

 

Eternity has increasing value.  My “belief” of what is true about God, eternity, etc is insignificant.  I no longer want to guess about what is true (in contrast to my opinion) about Him .  I remember that Jesus said to the truth-pursuers of His culture, “I am the Truth”.  I am re-motivated to seek to walk closely with the living Truth, rather than be “right”, know the Bible, do good things, or appear a certain way before people.

 

The things of this world are dimming.  Relationships, encouragement, love, and that which lasts are becoming more significant in my daily thoughts and feelings.  Life is becoming reduced to His love for me and my love for Him and those around me.  Everything outside of these has less value and cause less concern.

 

Pain and illness, whether in body, mind or circumstance alters one’s soil.  I’ve said before that love and affliction change something deep within us.  The Kingdom of God breaks in most significantly when affliction encounters love.  This affliction in my life has broken some of the fallow ground in my heart and seeds planted over many years are germinating.  I can wish the illness away, deny its reality, or demand that He heal me and completely miss all that He is doing in me through the affliction.  Eugene Peterson has said, “Perhaps the greatest thing to fear is getting what you want and missing what God wants.”  We often seek healing from that sent by God to heal us!

 

In love beyond our ability to understand, God is continually bringing/allowing affliction (thorns) in our lives, in people around us and in people around the world so as to change the soil so it will be ready for seed.  He uses illness, tragedy, financial hardship, failure etc to bring us to a place of hunger, brokenness, and mourning so that we can receive in humility the truly beautiful things (love, peace, joy…) He wants to plant in us.  We see wealth and health as blessing while Jesus used illustrations with camels and needles and spoke of the blessing in hunger, brokenness, and mourning.

 

God is surely at work in the beautiful things.  He is also at work in the painful, difficult things in our lives for the purpose of healing us of our pride, arrogance, self-concern and short-sidedness (by His stripes we are healed).  Let us see the pain around us and in us this year and recognize in it the hand of our loving Father.

 

This year we all will face hardship because our Father wants to heal us and bring us closer to Him.  We can have a new sensitivity this year and see the hurting people around us with new eyes.  When we experience or see pain and suffering, rather than wish or pray it away, let us seek our Father’s purpose in it and seek Him as to how He might use us as instruments of His love and comfort.

 

And we can seek truth in the study of the Bible, philosophy, religion, doctrine, etc, or we can seek to walk with Truth and learn more what it means to follow Him, to seek first His kingdom, and to love Him and our neighbors as we appreciate more fully His sovereign purposes and His unconditional love.

Merry Christmas

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“Merry” is not a word that most people in the world would use to describe this season.

 

50% of the world’s population live on less than $2.50/day

21,000 children die of preventable causes every day (98% in developing countries)

-equivalent to 23 Haitian earthquakes per year, every year…

-equivalent to 33 Asian Tsunamis per year, every year…

-equivalent to every five days everyone in the OSU Horseshoe dying…

 

In developing countries some 2.5 billion people (1 of 3 world-wide) are forced to rely on biomass—fuelwood, charcoal and animal dung—to meet their energy needs for cooking. In sub-Saharan Africa, over 80% of the population depends on traditional biomass for cooking, as do over half of the populations of India and China.

1/4 people world-wide (1.6 billion people) have no electricity

1/3 of all deaths world-wide are due to poverty

100 million street children worldwide have no nuclear family

1/5 adults are completely illiterate.  Many more are functionally illiterate

1/3 of all city-dwellers worldwide live in slums

More people (2.5 million – mostly kids) die yearly of diarrhea (from lack of clean drinking water) than malaria, AIDS, TB…

The world now produces enough food annually to adequately nourish more than twice the existing world population…

 

And yet……………………………………..

Church-goers gave about 2.38% of their income to the church in 2009.

An estimated $239 a year per evangelical Christian could potentially stop global deaths of children under five.  $17/day per evangelical christian could eliminate world hunger.

The church gives 2% of their total offering to missions today, compared to 10% in 1920.

85% of all church activity and funds is directed toward the internal operations of the congregation

“Relatively little donated money actually moves much of a distance away from the contributors,” Smith, Emerson, and Snell write. The money given by the people in the pews, it turns out, is largely spent on the people in the pews. Only about 3% of money donated to churches and ministries went to aiding or ministering to non-Christians.”

4% of Church-goers give away 10% or more of their income

Less than 2% of all church revenue is spent on foreign missions outreach and 0.5% of all income is spent on missions to people who have no gospel access.

95% of missions money and resources in the western world go to areas of the world where there is already an established or emerging church and 5% goes to areas where there is no church presence

 

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From Acts through Revelation, you won’t find a single example where money was given, or asked for, to meet anything besides basic needs, such as food, shelter, and health.  How much of our donated money goes to helping those truly lacking in food, shelter, or health?

Is it “missions” to plant a church where a church exists?  Is it “charity” to give food to a group that has plenty of food?

There are so many places in the world with abject poverty, where lack of food, shelter, and basic health care cause premature death.  There are so many people who have never heard.  As we celebrate Jesus’ birth this year, let us remember how He wept for hurting sheep, how He met desperate needs, how He left home to touch, to love, to guide, to teach, and to give His life… because He loved.

Why were you born here?  What can you give?  What can you take to those without?

Go this year to touch people who haven’t heard or people who need what God has given you to give.  Love the unloved.  If you can’t go, give so that someone else might go in your place…

Let us give sacrificially this Christmas, following the One who’s birth we celebrate.  This will birth in us a truly “merry” Christmas.

We pray you have a sacrificial, love-filled, Jesus-focused Christmas Season.

December Update

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After serving the remote people of the Brazil Amazon for nearly six years, we are now preparing for our upcoming move to Angola.
Angola is a beautiful, broken country in southern Africa, recovering from more than thirty years of civil war.  The vast majority of Angolans, especially those living outside of cities, have little or no access to modern health care and to the Good News of our Father’s affection for them.

We will work in an area about the size of Ohio, among several large, isolated people groups (populations of 10,000-100,000).  A few of the region’s statistics are to the right.  Our hope is to leave in February to begin the task of loving the people of this region by taking to them basic health care and word of Jesus’ grace and love.
We are so privileged to be His hands and voice as we live among and serve those living remotely in southwest Angola, some of the neediest people in the world.

Visas, Health, Finances

In addition to raising the finances neccessary to live and work in Angola (see below), we must obtain visas and health clearance for Tim’s heart prior to departure.  Tim will be retested in January to assure that the aggressive heart disease discovered this autumn has stabilized.  He is doing well as his knee is almost pain-free and he has had no further heart symptoms.

The visa process is unpredictable and lengthy but we should have all of our documents ready for application by January 1st.

We now have 42 people/families/churches contributing to our work financially, and we continue to seek people who would sacrificially partner with us in this endeavor.  Many people will benefit through your hard-earned donation.

Our Support Team
We can’t do this work alone.  We are currently forming a team of like-minded people who also desire to serve some of the “least” in the world.  If we are the hands, our support team is the rest of the body enabling us to touch the people of rural Angola.  This team will serve with us by praying for us and those we serve, encouraging us, visiting us, and supporting our work financially.  It is exciting to know that we will have a large team “going” with us.

We currently have about 85% of our needed funds pledged and are receiving 53% of our pledges.  Thank you to all of you who have joined us in this effort!

Would you prayerfully consider partnering with us in serving the people of Angola?  No contribution is too small or too large.  Both one-time and monthly contributors are needed (see basic budget outline in the right column). Please consider what role you might have in this work.  We would love to meet with you and personally discuss our ministry.

Please notify us of your decision by email (kubacki.betsyandtim@gmail.com). It would be helpful to know the members of our team soon.  Please let us know, especially, if you would like to be part of our prayer team and/or if you will contribute financially.  We greatly look forward to working with  you!

I am yours…

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Not long ago, while worshipping at our church in Sunbury to a song titled, “Jesus, I am yours and you are mine,”  I had the following interaction with my Father.  I’m reminded that my life is not about happiness, but rather walking with my Father, grateful, meek, yielded… rejoicing…

“I love you, my son…”

“Father, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“Your journey will be difficult and confusing.”

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“I will strip away from your life that which you depend on and serve that isn’t me, and it will hurt.”

“Jesus, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You won’t have a place to live or security for your future.”

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will live outside of comfort and the familiar.

“Jesus, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“I am looking for someone to go to the darkness.

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will be misunderstood.”

“Jesus, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will not feel respected or loved.”

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will not understand my ways”.

“Jesus, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will be rejected and ridiculed.”

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“I will ask for all of you.”

“Jesus, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“Your life will not turn out as you expect”

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will experience great sadness.”

“Jesus, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will be lonely, unrecognized.”

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“You will be wounded and scarred.”

“Jesus, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“I will ask you to love those ungrateful, who won’t love you in return.”

“I am yours and you are mine.”

 

“I so dearly love you, my son.”

“Father, I am yours and you are mine.”

 

 

This can my attitude one moment and the next it’s all about me and the next….  It’s amazing how many various motives, fears, dreams, intentions, beauty and ugliness are all in there… and yet still so dearly loved and cherished.  The Good News that we receive and take to all…

Update, 11-23-11

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Health Update

I am feeling well.  God has used many of you to deeply encourage me as I
process my unexpected health issues.  After my angioplasty and stenting last
Wednesday, I have no symptoms with my heart, though I must remain pretty
inactive for about a month (other than walking).  My knee (6 weeks
post-operation) has improved dramatically over the past two weeks and I am
fully functional with minimal pain.  After so many years, it is quite
incredible to walk and stand with so little knee pain.

My cardiologist told me that if I have no symptoms by 3 months, my risk of a
serious, life-threatening heart issue is about 1%.  Because I have low
cardiac risk factors (not overweight, no high blood pressure, nonsmoker,
healthy diet – now vegetarian, and exerciser), my risk of recurrence might
be less that 1% from 3 months on.  My biggest current health challenge is
marked insomnia, (which affects everything) that is likely secondary to the
knee surgery and should resolve in the next month or two.

 

Messages

Two “teachings” that Tim has given recently in churches are available on the
internet:

1)  ”Pain and Suffering and Our Response to it” —  given at the Toledo
Vineyard  –  http://vineyardtoledo.com/Vineyard_Toledo/Messages.html

2) An interview with Danny about “Calling” and our journey —  given at
Vineyard Church of Delaware County — http://www.vineyardcdc.org , then “Resources”, then scroll down to “Sermons”

 

Financial Update

Our financial support received up to this point is about 35% of the
$10,000 that we need monthly and about 50% of the needed $90,000 in start-up
costs.  Our previous reports focused, by comparison, on what has been
pledged.

Thank you so much for your interest and support and thank you for presenting
your requests to our Father on behalf of my health.  Please continue to pray
for the same, for our visa process and for wisdom as we make decisions as to
the timing of our move.   We are now hoping for an early February departure.

tim and betsy

Heart Cath and processing results

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I (Tim) had a Heart Catheterization yesterday which revealed that my heart disease was significantly worse than it was three months ago.  A smaller vessel was blocked completely and a main artery was almost closed.  Over an hour and a half, a sharp cardiologist (I sure appreciate excellence) ballooned open the smaller vessel and put a stent in the main artery (LAD).

 

Some thoughts follow:

I’m thankful that I’m in the States and not in Angola (MY plans had us there Sept 1st).

 

Healing would be nice (I will ask), as would the grace to accept whatever my Father has for me.  Whether He heals me or not, our Father is in control and has reasons the human mind cannot realize.  ”Why was this man born blind?” (Jn 9)…  I am challenged once again today to trust Him or to fear.

 

In our eyes, life consists of “good” and “bad”.  From my superficial, temporal perspective, this was bad news.  Can I, however, believe that my Father has eternal purpose behind all good and evil, all sickness and health, and all life and death and that He can intervene any time He so desires (and often chooses not to)?  I’m reminded of the remarkable story of Joseph who remained faithful through so much (impossible to humanly understand) pain and hardship.  I understand so little but my challenge is to trust either in my Father or in my understanding.  My perspective will, I’m sure, be different as I look back 10, 100, and 1000 years from now.

 

It’s difficult for me to not be disappointed by what was revealed yesterday, but what has happened to me over the past three months has not taken my Father by surprise.  So much in this often painful world is the same.  So many people experience so much more pain than I have.  With each exposure to pain, whether in our life or in another’s, we choose our response.  We can deny reality, wish it away, call evil everything unpleasant, or trust God and that His wisdom and purposes are beyond us.  We can humbly turn toward our Father in our pain or defiantly raise our fist toward Him and demand answers and/or resolution.  I faced this choice about thirty times yesterday.  We can also choose to look away from ourselves and focus on, and love, those hurting…

 

I keep thinking about the fact that so many people in the world will never have the “privilege” of experiencing what I experienced this week.  Life expectancy for virtually all people throughout history (until 1960) and still for many in the world is less than my 50 years.

 

“It will never happen to me” is now officially irrelevant.  I can no longer question my own mortality.  Meditating on the world without me is a humbling, healthy exercise.  I am loved but not essential to the outworking of God’s plans.

 

Heart disease or not, the laborers are so few.  So few people know how desperately God cares for them.  It is estimated that more than three billion people still have yet to hear the Good News.  I seek anew His perspective on my life and His wisdom as I look forward.  Thank you for praying for me.

November Update

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We so appreciate your interest in helping us reach out to the remote people of southwest Angola, some of the neediest people in the world. Below is an update on our progress toward beginning our work there.

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MONTHLY FINANCIAL SUPPORT

We are currently at 65% of the monthly financial support needed to begin. Thank you to the more than 50 people or families who are already contributing to our work. If you are planning on supporting us and haven’t notified us, please do so by email so that we can more accurately assess where we are with our funds. See below as to how to send donations.

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If you know anyone who might be interested in supporting our work, please introduce us. We are looking to expand our network and meet others desiring to participate in taking the good news of the Kingdom and health care to those currently without.

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Would you please ask our Father how exactly He would have you participate in this work to the people of rural Angola? We need an additional $4000/month to fund our upcoming work. The following additional contributions would allow us to begin work. Could you perhaps contribute in one of the following ways (tax-deductible)?

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4 financial partners at $1000/month ($12,000/year)
8 financial partners at $500/month ($6,000/year)
16 financial partners at $250/month ($3,000/year)
40 financial partners at $100/month ($1,200/year)
80 financial partners at $50/month ($600/year)

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All contributions (nothing is too small or large) are so appreciated and will help to bring health care and the Good News to the Angolan people. If everyone in our contact list (400 people/families), for example, contributed an additional dollar per day, we would be fully funded.

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START UP COSTS

We also have about 70% of our start-up expenses pledged. In addition to our monthly support, we need approximately $26,000 in additional contributions to depart for Angola and begin work. Perhaps at this year-end, contributing to this fund would be a way that our Father might use you to have a global impact?

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VISAS

We have begun the process for obtaining visas, hoping that we can collect the appropriate documents and gain our entry visas early in 2012.

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We have been so blessed during our time here by way of housing, loaned cars, individual and group meetings, warm embraces and encouraging interest in us and our work. Thank you to everyone who is helping us during this transition time. If we haven’t seen you, please email, as we would like to see you before we leave.

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your partners in His work,

tim and betsy

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Prayer considerations:

Tim is having another Heart Cath tomorrow (11-16-11) for stenting of a re-occluded coronary artery. He is recovering well from his knee replacement surgery

There are yet many mental, emotional, spiritual, relational, and financial preparations

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Contributions: Mail:
SIM USA
PO Box 7900
Charlotte, NC 28241

Online:

http://sim.org/giveusa

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Reminders:
We are His hands and His voice. Through us He touches, embraces, and offers a gentle word. Through us He draws all men unto Himself…

All work is His. We are all invited to participate in what He is doing in Angola.

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